Hello sweetheart. I had a dream about you last night, that you were still here with us, that it was all just a scare in the hospital and they revived you and we brought you home. Then I had to wake up this morning with this truth hanging over me. I miss you soooo much munchkin, I dont know why I have to be here without you. Its hurting so bad, every time I write on this page I'm crying. Why did this happen to us? I was so happy being your mammy, and now my life is empty. All I can do is think of that evil, cruel night and cry and cry. Im so sorry loves. I keep getting told, remember the good times, but I cant, that night keeps coming back. And what good will memories do? It makes no difference, I want to hold you and tickle you and watch you grow, and I cant. Please god, let me find you again when its my time, I just want to be your mother. I love you doesn't seem a strong enough phrase. I adore you, my soul is you. And I hope you are looking down going ''shutup mam, I'm happy now.'' I hope you are safe and loved and warm. Aunty Donna wants to say hello, and in time she'll put a tribute on here too ok chubbers. Goodnight babba bumble. Sleep tight and safe. Mammy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
This candle was first lit on the 1st of May 2008 and will burn for 83 years 11 months and 11 days.